I KNOW IT ALL

So I crave to be a perfectionist? A person blessed with a winning mentality. And I am so fortunate that no one can ever risk an argument with me because when the tempers flare, I am utterly terrific. 'Mr right' is my name. My self concept is sound. To some, I am sort of an angel from an alien nation. I percieve my opinions to be the best and my decisions are final. I have a deep conviction that I know it all. I am not open to opinions inform of advice or suggestions from other people because my opinion or decisions are final and the best ever.

So it is time for Dr. Priscilla Njoki's Psychology discussion lecture, or Prof. Gichuru's Philosophy discussion class or even Dr. Hedwig's Sociology assignment presentation lecture. It is hard to imagine how entertaining my classmates arguments would be. I am not truant so I cant miss a lecture because KCA University does not tolerate truancy. My option is limited to attending these lectures. But my greatest concern is how to let everyone buy my ideas. Every opinion given by a classmate inform of an answer is an academic suicide because their answers is not in line with my point of view. I spend nearly all the day in the library studying, but I hardly get to understand anything but I cannot consult my classmates who are ever determined to view me with the eye of a critic because I Know it all. Last week lecturer Ann sent me out of the lecture hall because I couldn't respect the opinions of my classmates, let alone embracing their opinions.

Lisa, Joab and Nyongesa are busy revising because exams will soon get underway, but I am not concerned. After all, why must I revise when my fate is sealed.? Revise or not, grade E is never in doubt. Every time I sit for an exam, I gloriously fail because the lecturers ask me questions I don't know and I give them answers they don't know then they call it a fail. I suppose their answer sheets must be wrong because I know it all.

I am happily nursing a wound I recieved after Alan gave me an electric punch and a hefty push last evening because I couldn't allow for turn taking in our discussion. But how could he expect me to listen to him? I am not a good listener anyway and moreover, I was even scared to listen to his opinions throughout our discussion because I know it all. How he lost his head and gave me such a punch is something that I shall ever fail to understand because he should understand that I am mr right. A man of presumptions and of endless interruptions. He should know that his opinions are not better than mine anyway because I know it all.

I believe that communication is all about expressing myself, not listening. I have never found the value of being open to other people's opinions. Making personal consultations is no option. My opinions are the best and my decisions are final. I am an authoritarian. I push people so hard regardless of the fact that not everyone can move on the same wave length. I no longer have friends.Like wind, they ran away from me because they can't just handle mr right like me, who knows it all.

Everyone seems to differ with me in anything, but I bet their world must be different from mine. Can I change my world or simply fit into theirs? Definitely no because I passionately love my world. Why would I change my world anyway? why would I stop enjoying this loneliness because no one wants to associate himself or herself with me? why should I be open to other people's ideas? Why would I be open to recieve corrections, reprimand, teachings or suggestions since I know it all?

That's all about me and my know it all. How about you? Do you also 'know it all?' Are you also mr right, a perfectionsist and mr 'Iknow it all' so that I can count on you as a friend, though I am planning to change that tittle. I never thought I would say this, but perfectionisms is impossible and not human anyway. Being mr right is inhuman. Not listening, let alone understanding, to others is not healthy for our social lives and will only lower people's opinions on us. Let's be embrace other people and their opinions. let us avoid being judgemental. Let us be ready minded, of open hearts and clear minds. Remembering that life is as good as it is and full of experiences, with each experience being a lesson, let's not rush to make decisions, to make presumptions and to understate other people. We cannot exist in this planet alone without them. Unless we don't change this mindset of 'I know it all' then we are in danger of becoming disoriented and maladjusted.